I would like to be frank with you in private, if I may. [Zenyatta exudes natural confidence, for the most part, but now he can't prevent his voice from wavering, just a hair, beneath the weight of his uncertainty.
Which is ridiculous. He knows that he has nothing to fear from Genji. Their bond has been tested by disagreements a great many times in the past without straining in the slightest. But then, they've never quite broached this topic before...
He continues evenly.]
I believe that your brother and I could grow closer here. Would you have any objection if we were to become sexually intimate? [with uncharacteristic haste that more or less undoes that whole air of calm:] Your feelings are of vital importance to me, my student. I could never hurt you.
[ but before anything else can be discussed - There It Is. there's a sudden silence that belies surprise at zenyatta's request. he's so surprised and stunned that it takes him a second to even say - ]
Give - give me a moment.
[ there is a kneejerk reaction of being upset. of worrying over zenyatta, of worrying over his brother. they could, easily, both hurt each other unintentionally. and while genji knows he can separate sex and affection, he's not so sure about hanzo himself.
it is a few minutes later that he comes back to the conversation. ]
I do not have any objections. I admit to some... concern, regarding it, but that has to do with my own worries for him. You are both adults, and ... this is in the vein of what I asked you - to be there for him. This is a natural step towards that, in this place.
[Years of meditation, of peaceful reveries, of a quiet mind, cannot change the simple fact that silence can be deadly. Uncertainty twists its knife into Zenyatta's core, and though he tries to rationalise Genji's hesitation as plainly understandable- it is an absurd question, even under the best of circumstances- a small but vocal line in his processor suggests that the conversation is already over.
It is not.
Zenyatta's relief vocalises itself as a sigh of relief, and when he speaks he sounds hopeful, even.]
Share your thoughts with me. I am not without concerns either, and I am curious to know if they will align. [A small, tapping sound: his knuckles settling pensively against his chin.] He can seem so fragile...
[ genji knows that silence can be dangerous - it was why he'd requested a moment, in the hopes to minimize zenyatta's worry, instead of just suddenly going silent.
still, he hears that sigh and understands. his master had seemed worried, and was probably more so as he mused. at least he asks for his concerns, as well.
genji gives his own small sigh. ]
I know I have told you I was quite promiscuous in my youth. In that, Hanzo seemed my opposite in every way. The only person I know he felt strongly for I may have... also taken to bed before I realized, and he did not handle it well.
I am not so sure he will be able to separate the act of intimacy from romance. I understand that everyone is different, and that there is some level of care that one must share with their partner, but I just... worry about him getting his feelings hurt again.
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Which is ridiculous. He knows that he has nothing to fear from Genji. Their bond has been tested by disagreements a great many times in the past without straining in the slightest. But then, they've never quite broached this topic before...
He continues evenly.]
I believe that your brother and I could grow closer here. Would you have any objection if we were to become sexually intimate? [with uncharacteristic haste that more or less undoes that whole air of calm:] Your feelings are of vital importance to me, my student. I could never hurt you.
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[ but before anything else can be discussed - There It Is. there's a sudden silence that belies surprise at zenyatta's request. he's so surprised and stunned that it takes him a second to even say - ]
Give - give me a moment.
[ there is a kneejerk reaction of being upset. of worrying over zenyatta, of worrying over his brother. they could, easily, both hurt each other unintentionally. and while genji knows he can separate sex and affection, he's not so sure about hanzo himself.
it is a few minutes later that he comes back to the conversation. ]
I do not have any objections. I admit to some... concern, regarding it, but that has to do with my own worries for him. You are both adults, and ... this is in the vein of what I asked you - to be there for him. This is a natural step towards that, in this place.
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It is not.
Zenyatta's relief vocalises itself as a sigh of relief, and when he speaks he sounds hopeful, even.]
Share your thoughts with me. I am not without concerns either, and I am curious to know if they will align. [A small, tapping sound: his knuckles settling pensively against his chin.] He can seem so fragile...
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still, he hears that sigh and understands. his master had seemed worried, and was probably more so as he mused. at least he asks for his concerns, as well.
genji gives his own small sigh. ]
I know I have told you I was quite promiscuous in my youth. In that, Hanzo seemed my opposite in every way. The only person I know he felt strongly for I may have... also taken to bed before I realized, and he did not handle it well.
I am not so sure he will be able to separate the act of intimacy from romance. I understand that everyone is different, and that there is some level of care that one must share with their partner, but I just... worry about him getting his feelings hurt again.